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Balls Deep (feat. Deep Throat)
I have been black balled, kicked right out with a clean cut, at least three times this year. G-Eazy would wife it up. WHAT WAS THAT? Fuck. Black balls come fast, out of nowhere. I got Willy Wonka's golden ticket inviting me to radically change life. You may be jealous at how I sport this cancer sack. I still can taunt flirt with my own jiggly bits, but blue balls only hang from dicks. No, I am not politically correct. I am also not a part of profiting of under the disguise
Nikki Bilello
Sep 25, 20216 min read


You can't Hit This (feat. BT)
This smell. Beyond clothes or skin. Repulsive. Rot lives within. Smells of false confidence, burnt smoke, dirty toke. Let me get some air. Intuitively clear. Rejection. Violence. Incoherence. That's all that lives here. The energy is stagnant, disturbing. There is a manic forcefulness that has. No Guts. No Glory. Secret. Yet strikingly exposed. Ya, Cohen is right. Everybody Knows. Eyes that can't save face. Between a Rock. And hard place. Stay clear old the Devil's den. You o
Nikki Bilello
Dec 19, 20251 min read


Becoming. Owls eyes. (feat. knockknock)
Nocturnal. Now. Notorious. Silence. The Hunters’ Dream. Darkness. Each lazy, caressing strand of wind.. Brilliant. Awestruck. Savagely seen. Pray. Prey. Darkness awakens.Our. Internal light. Illuminated. To each their own. To each equanimity. Scents seducing, suffocating; ironically, sterilizing. Cascading with wet force. Scents just acting like thoughts. Again. There is a knowing, undeniable truth, settled into Wisdom. It's in the eyes. It's touches all of you.
Nikki Bilello
Jan 11, 20241 min read


You'd peek, too.
My entire body is pressed against. A door. My whole weight, little heavier lately as I've added some flare to my aura. Am I the fucking handle? Truth is. I am drawn to beckoning doors. But, usually, not yet. Welcome. My right eye never sees a closed door. Dark and deep as hidden treasure. My key is that of a voyeur, And, voyeurs' key unlocks, just the...View. I am naked in this room. Mentally saddling this space. Sitting on your face. (whoa. too far.) The only light I see. I
Nikki Bilello
Nov 9, 20232 min read


I packed this bowl for two (feat. Russ & Roulette)
I was 11 when I first awkwardly thrust a clutch into gear. I was 15 when my mom showed up at my high school to get my drivers license. I thought that was weird. I turned 16 on May 16, 1991. My mom was there again. Before lunch was over I had my license. It was just me, music and review mirror. I still love hitting the whip that way. Shotgun was promised to Nick, we were gonna fly. I never gave Nick a ride. Death took shotgun. Reeking of all things unfair. This was not the a
Nikki Bilello
Apr 12, 20233 min read


Red (feat. Mag Extinct)
Priceless irony kneeled to rest, and, with respect. Her eyes bulge. A pair of deep, deep, blue...snake-eyed die. Today the view was new....
Nikki Bilello
Nov 4, 20221 min read


500 Miles...
I am awkwardly honest. I have no idea why. Shit. Wait. That is a lie. Honesty bites through leather, rips through lace. It can be the...
Nikki Bilello
Sep 21, 20222 min read


My name is Nikki
You can't call me Dre. Talking in the cuts doesn't pay. Shit. I ain't got nothing to do. I am going to fuck with you. Principalities....
Nikki Bilello
Aug 20, 20221 min read


The. Time. Is. Now.
She was a good time. He couldn't tell time. She was the right time. He never had time. She wouldn't be a long time. He waited for the next time. She was beyond time. He couldn't save time. She escaped time. He lost time. The sand in the hourglass now makes him itch. The hourglass became a self righteous bitch. It was his last time. And, sadly, he thought he still had time. Eventually... His time began to stagger. He tried to save it in a bottle. Habitually, he swallowed today
Nikki Bilello
May 23, 20224 min read


Tangled up in blue...
I have been playing hide and seek for two years with my father. I keep finding little boy blue on the moon. I am still holding Ricky...
Nikki Bilello
Mar 13, 20221 min read


Bitch. Sit. Down. Shit.
A good shit show is a voyeuristic force to reckon with. The malodorous stench of another's shit hitting the fan does not pull away the...
Nikki Bilello
Feb 9, 20223 min read


Tell Your Own Tale
A sane mind can be pushed to insanity. Especially when the impossible beating of a murdered heart begins to twist the mind apart. An...
Nikki Bilello
Dec 3, 20212 min read


I love You. I'll Never Question That.
Why did I never have your name? What is your definition of friendship? Why didn't you work for the family business? When I moved near...
Nikki Bilello
Jul 24, 20213 min read


i Why U Bullshittin'?
I remember weird shit. Like, the first time I squeezed, panicked and felt fear at the "Fun House" at the Frog Jump. I never did do well with being stuck, and I swear I started running as soon as I realized I could. But, I remember, getting to the top of that Fun House where the distorted mirrors are. That threw me. I was sure that my neck, head and legs were not really 10 feet long. But…I was looking at the proof; however, I was dead-set that I was still the same. I had been
Nikki Bilello
Apr 23, 20215 min read


Sound of Silence
Hello darkness, my old friend, I've come to talk with you again. I'd like to let Paul Simon know that darkness is not a friend. And,...
Nikki Bilello
Dec 21, 20202 min read


Twump Twump
Twenty days left for wet T-shirt contests and scandalous displays of cleavage. Twenty more days of Titties. Five words. Fucking mouthful....
Nikki Bilello
Dec 11, 20203 min read


Who could it be now?
The Wednesday before Thanksgiving left a mark. I admit, I hadn't given the day much credit to begin with. My fault. I was dwelling on yet...
Nikki Bilello
Dec 1, 20201 min read


The Giving Tree
Does breast cancer run in your family? I want to answer this question with confidence. I also want to love mushrooms, but my confidence...
Nikki Bilello
Nov 24, 20202 min read


Am I ok?
Are you? The simple answer is, Yes! To the cashier, waitress, peers, and, all daily interactions...I am better than ok! However, I have...
Nikki Bilello
Nov 20, 20201 min read


I'd F*ck Me
I sexually assaulted women today. Not in a way that will require me to register as a sex offender; none of the women knew they were my...
Nikki Bilello
Nov 19, 20202 min read
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